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(no subject) [Jun. 6th, 2006|05:11 am]
[Current Location |Home]
[Current Mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[Current Music |"My Answer Is You" Brian Littrell]

Just wanted to share my excitement!

I got my tickets to see Brian Littrell on June 18 in Grand Rapids, Michigan in the mail today! WHOO-HOO!

Ok. I am done...

...for now.
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RIP Proof... [Apr. 11th, 2006|04:58 pm]
[Current Mood |sadsad]
[Current Music |"Just Rhymin Wit Proof" by Eminem feat. Proof of D-12]

RIP Proof, We'll Miss you!
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AJ Drawing [Apr. 8th, 2006|05:33 am]
[Current Location |Adrian, Michigan]
[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]
[Current Music |"If You Knew What I Knew" by Backstreet Boys]

As if you didn't know this was coming, lol:

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AJs Poem [Apr. 8th, 2006|02:28 am]
[Current Location |Adrian, Michigan]
[Current Mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[Current Music |"Happy" by AJ McLean]

Ok. So, I sent AJ a copy of that poem I'd written about them.

He responded.

Oh. My. God.

This is the comment he left me:


I just read the Poem you gave me and I think it's very well written, I hope you continue to write them. Here is a poem of mine for you...

Circumstantial Evidence:

She found someone elses sweater someone elses underwear; didnt even ask me if someone else was there. I knew I was in trouble noone came to my defense; you can say that baby got me circumstantial evidence. Evidence, evidence, you can say that baby got me circumstantial evidence.

Evidence, Evidence, yes baby sure got me circumstantial evidence. She went back home to her mother, back home to her friends;

her lawyer called and told me She aint coming back again. Cause of someone elses sweater, someone elses underpants; All the lady needed was circumstantial evidence. Evidence, evidence, you can say that baby got me circumstantial evidence.

Evidence, Evidence, yes baby sure got me circumstantial evidence. Well with the good Lord at the window, on the bible I will swear;

If I was only perfect, I woudln't despair. Even though she found me greedy of offense; I will take the bed and call it circumstantial evidence. Evidence, evidence, you can say that baby got me circumstantial evidence.

Evidence, Evidence, yes baby sure got me circumstantial evidence. Ive been watching Perry Mason, Long enough to know;

Theres no way to convict the killer, so darling come on home. I know Ive been a little stupid baby, But I aint dense. I promise baby therell be no more circumstantial Evidence Evidence, evidence, you can say that baby got me circumstantial evidence.

Evidence, Evidence, yes baby sure got me circumstantial evidence.

Enjoy :)
Peace Out**

Do you even freaking know how bad I'm busting a nut right now? OMG...DUDE. AJ McLean. AJ...McLean. Dude. DUDE.

I made it pretty so I can frame it. 'Cause you knoooow this bitch is going in a frame.

I'm am on Cloud 9 right now, big time.
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A Backstreet Poem - Written By Me [Apr. 6th, 2006|07:05 am]
[Current Location |Adrian, Michif\gan]
[Current Mood |calmcalm]
[Current Music |"Welcome Home" by Brian Littrell]

Ok, so I wrote this when I was like 15, but I posted it for my Backtreet Friends on MySpace and decided to post it in all of my journals, too. Don't like Backstreet? You Suck, lol. I wouldn't recommend reading any further.

My Favorite Place
A Backstreet Poem
Written By Me:
Brein G aka Bree aka Brein loves Brian

Everyday, sitting in my room, my thoughts return to that wonderful place...
It's a place where I am happy 'cause I know I'll always see your face.

It is my favorite fantasy,
Somewhere to go to get away from the pain of reality.

In my fantasy you are all mine,
You're not just a picture hanging on my BSB shrine.

We're sitting at the beach, having a picnic,
me, Brian, AJ, Kevin, Howie and Nick.

We laugh at Brians jokes, I compliment AJs hair,
It's my favorite place to be, I wish I was really there.

Brian leans over and kisses me on the cheek,
I smile at him, and my knees go weak.

I disappear in a hug from Kevin,
I can almost feel myself floating up to Heaven.

Nick serenades me with a beautiful song,
I feel for my pulse, I'm surprised it isn't gone.

AJ asks me how I like his new tattoo,
I say, "Of course I love it, because it's a part of you."

Howie hands me one long-stemmed rose,
I feel my body quiver from my head to my toes.

Brian takes my hand in his and asks me not to leave,
I can't believe what I just heard, I almost forget to breathe...

But then my eyes pop open.
I wanna stay there, that's what I'd been hopin'.

I'm back in reality, filled with pain and sorrow,
But I smile to myself and think, "Oh well, they'll be back tomorrow."
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Drawings [Mar. 22nd, 2006|04:36 am]
[Current Mood |creativecreative]
[Current Music |"Love Knows" by Backstreet Boys]

Here's my newest..I know it seems to light, but it's not. That's just the way it scanned in.

Brian Littrell (2006)

Here's some old skools:
A few of the drawing's I've done over the years...from 1999 (Jonathan Taylor Thomas) to 2005.

Jonathan Taylor Thomas (1999):

Brian Littrell (2000):

Brian Littrell (2003):

AJ McLean (2003):

Nelly (2003):

Kobe Bryant (2003):

Brian Littrell (2005):

B-Ball Player (2005):
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I Got A Long, Long Way To Go [Mar. 15th, 2006|12:14 am]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[Current Music |"Long, Long Way To Go" by Lionel Richie]

"Long, Long Way To Go" by Lionel Richie

You held my hand and then you slipped away
And I may never see your face again
So tell me how to fill the emptiness inside
Without love, what is life? And anyone who knew us
both can see We always were the better part of me
I never wanted to be this free And all this pain, when does it go away?

Then everytime I turn around And you're nowhere to be found I know

I gotta long long way to go Before I can say
goodbye to you Oh, I gotta long long way I know
Before I can say goodbye To all I ever knew, to you To you

From memory there is no hiding place Turn on the TV and I see you there
In every crowd there's always someone with your face
Everywhere, trying not to care

Then everytime I turn around And you're nowhere to be found I know

I gotta long long way to go Before I can say
goodbye to you Oh, I gotta long long way I know
Before I can say goodbye To all I ever knew

To you I wish you everything And all the best that life can bring
I only hope you think of me sometimes Oh, and even though I fell the pain
I know that you will love again The time will come and you'll move on

I gotta long long way to go Before I can say
goodbye to you Oh, I gotta long long way I know
Gotta long way to go Before I can say goodbye
Before I can say goodbye To all I ever knew
To all I ever knew I gotta long way to go
Before I say Say goodbye, say goodbye
But I wish you the best girl Oh and all of the rest to you
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Saint Andrews [Mar. 12th, 2006|03:13 am]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[Current Music |"Angel" by Dru Hill (Ronnie used to sing it to me a lot.)]

OK..so I've been wanting to write about last night. Most everyone that reads my journal already knows about Ronnie and I...so I won't need to write about our past.
But I will say that we do have a major past...he was once one of my best-friends...and before last night, I hadn't seen him in about 3 years.

Last night Crystal and I went to see him at Saint Andrews. He hosts there from 11pm-2am on Fridays. Crystal's friend, Robin, went with us.

We get to Saint Andrews at 11pm on the dot...but we have to stand in line for about 20 minutes, and by the time we get to the door admission is no longer free...
so Crystal pays the $5.oo a piece for us to get in. (Thanks, Babe!) We're slowly climbing the steps behind people, working our way up into the building, when a guy comes up and puts his
arms around my waist. He whispers, "Hey, sexy...how about saving a dance for me?" I say, "We'll see." He says, "I'd like to go home with you tonight." I say, "I'm not
going home tonight." He says "Then where you goin'?" I say, "To a friends house." He says, "OK, I'll go there with you." Then he points to Crystal and says "You goin' with her?"
I say "Nope." End of conversation. So, we climb the stairs, and come face-to-face with Tully (a guy we know from high-school). He works there, and was patting people down. I said,
"Oh shit...'bout to get felt up by Tully..." but then we had to go over and have a female do it. She pulled Crystals car keys from my pocket and took her Tweety key holder (like the
thing you'd use to wear it around your neck) and says "You can't have this in there.." Then she puts it in her pocket. I say ok...thinking we'll get it back when we go home.
(I was wrong, they don't return items..I think it's bull-shit and they should have told us when she took it in the first place.) So...we make our way down to The Basement, where Ronnie should be.
We look around for him, and don't see him right away...so we head to the back of the room. Then, Crystal and I both spot him, and my heart starts pounding out of my chest.
Robin thinks we should go say hi, but Crystal and I decided to start drinking first to take a little of our nervousness away. So, we go up to the bar and order beers.
We stand there drinking, and Crystal and I down our first glass. Crystal starts to dance a little bit, but then her and robin decided they wanna go see the upstairs...so we head up
there, and as we're going up, Shanta Hill (Roberts sister) comes down. She sees Crystal first and says "Hey, Crystal." Then she sees me and says "Hey, Brein." and waves. I say "Hey."
Crystal asks "Who was that?" I say "Uhhhhh, Shanta....DUH...." Crystal says "Ooohhh..."
So we get up to the 2nd floor, and I immediately wanna go back down to The Basement. So, back down we go. Ronnie was standing right by the doorway, but I went the long way so I wouldn't have to walk in front of him. (I know, pathetic..)
We go back up to the bar and order more drinks. Crystal starts dancing, I'm just downing my beer...Robin did a few shots. Some guy comes up and starts dancing behind Crystal, so she starts grinding on him, still drinking her beer.
She danced with him for about an hour. Meanwhile, Robin goes to the very back to sit down. I'm still standing next to Crystal and Mr. Happy...although I was feeling a bit awkward. Then, a guy comes up to me and says
"Smile, or I'll bite you." I say, "I am smiling." He says, "Well, I'm still gonna bite you. I don't bite hard, see?" Then he attaches himself to my neck, which automatically made me tighten up, because my neck is my hotspot and
well, lets just say I wouldn't mind finding myself alone with a guy. He then leans in and gives me a peck on the lips, then asks me to hold on a sec, and goes to the back of the room on his phone. He comes back 2 minutes later and says
"Smile." I said, "I am." Then, he flips me off. I say, "What's that for?" He says "Fuck You." I say "I know what it means, but why do you say that?" He says "Because it sounds like a good idea to me."
I say, "I see." He leans in and kisses me...I kiss him back. Then, I start kissing, nipping at his neck. He pulls back and says "I think I'm gonna need to hand cuff you up to something and have my way...and I have the key." Then he lifts his arm and
shows me the key dangling from a band on his wrist, and then shows me the handcuffs dangling from his belt loop. I tug on them. He says, "Can we go somewhere and talk?" I say, "We can go talk, but that's the only thing we're gonna do.." He says "What do you mean by that?"
I say "Exactly what I said. We can go and TALK." He says, "But what's that supposed to mean?" I say, "Well, you just said that fucking me seemed like a good idea...so I'm letting you know that we can talk, but thats all we'll be doing." He says, "I'm probably the biggest
asshole you'll ever meet." I'm thinking to myself, "Oh, well that's attractive." He leans in and kisses me again, and then asks me to meet him upstairs at the bar in 20 minutes. I say "Ok." But, I never went.
Shortly after, Ronnie comes and stands near me...but doesn't acknowledge me...so I reach over with my foot and nudge him in the leg. He looks at me, but then lets some girl pull him away...he gives her a hug, but then walks back over to me.
He pulls me into a big hug, I kiss his cheek, and he whispers, "Hey baby..how you doin'?" *Sigh* He still calls me 'baby'. I say "Hey, I'm doing good....how about you?" He says, "I'm doing great." Then he pulls away from the hug, but keeps an arm around me, and says into his microphone
"I got my girl Brein in the house with me tonight...!" Then he peers around me, takes his mic away from his mouth, and says to me "And I see we got Crystal up in here, too." She was grinding all up on the same dude. I say, "Yep...she's here, just a little pre-occupied.."
Ronnie walks back up into the dancing crowd. I continue to stand there, but (Oh My God, Guys!) I slowly begin to dance. I continue dancing for the rest of the night, too. Crystal is directly in front of me with the dude, and Robin is standing next to me, near the bar.
Ronnie's walking around, shoutin' out shout outs, doin' his thing. A fight breaks out in front of the DJ booth, so he calls in security. No big deal.
Ronnie walks past me, I'm still dancing. A few minutes later, I feel a hand on my waist, and I'm thinkin' "Ok, another horny muthafucker..", but I turn and it's Ronnie. We start rocking together and again he says into his mic "My girl Brein up in the house!" then he walks away.
I keep dancing. He comes back another time and once again I think it's another horny mofo...(but am happy it's Ronnie)...and he gives me my 3rd shout out for the night... ...shortly after Crystal joins us again (she has no idea why the dude and her quit dancing, lol...) I'm still dancing, so she says
"Ooohhh, you're dancing!" and then she dances with me. We get a million stares from different guys. We quit dancing and we're just all 3 standing there in a row...and some random guys comes over, kisses Crystals stomach, then kisses Robin, then me, and walks away. We start laughing.
Then Ronnie comes back over, finally hugs Crystal, then hugs me...and gives us both another shout-out on the mic. He walks away, Crystal and I both dance a bit more...until Ronnie announces it's about time to be over.
So, it ends, people start leaving, including Crystal and Robin, and I'm like "Oh hell naw..." and I whip Crystal back to me by her arm and I say "We are NOT leaving without another hug and a goodbye." Ronnie is standing right next to us, but other females keep coming up and hugging him goodbye..so finally
he's by himself and I grab his arm and say "It's Good-bye time". (Hey, that's a Blake Shelton song, lol.) He hugs me and I kiss him on the cheek. He says "It was nice to see you, baby." I say, "It was nice to see you, too." Then he hugs Crystal, and then goes up to Robin and says "I don't know you, but I'll hug you, too." and
he did. Then he says into his mic "Hey Jewelz (the DJ) these are more of my people from ABT." Then he says, "Hope y'all had fun tonight." I mouth to him "Thank you, baby." Then we start walking away and Ronnie yells out "ABT!" so I yell out "ABT, what!" Then we leave. We try to get Crystals Tweety thing back, but they wouldn't give it to
us, saying that they didn't even know which one it was. W/E..that was some bull-shit. So, then Robin drives us back to her house. Crystal's to drunk to drive...so then I drove from Robins to Crystals house. We got there at about 3am, and went to bed at 3:30am...and right now, as I'm ending this, I cannot believe it's almost 24 hours later.
We definitely wanna go do it again SOON.

This is Ronnie aka The Young Truth:
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Brian Littrells Album [Mar. 9th, 2006|11:51 pm]
[Current Mood |ecstaticecstatic]
[Current Music |"Welcome Home" by Brian Littrell]

Here is what will be on the album:

My Answer Is You
Welcome Home
Keep Givin' Me
Gone Without Goodbye
I'm Alive
Over My Head
We Lift You Up
Grace of My Life
Angels and Heroes
Jesus Loves You

The album will be released on May 2nd 2006

I found this information in a zone on fan-zone.net ...not sure how forreal it is...but knew I had to share it!

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Aaaargh! [Mar. 8th, 2006|01:08 am]
[Current Mood |pissed offpissed off]
[Current Music |Next is on TV]

I'm pissed. What the fuck is the point of bringing somethnig up if you're not gonna follow through with the rest of the story? Did you ever fucking think that maybe your words would hurt her? You're a pussy for not bringing up the names. If they're not important, then it shouldn't be a problem to rat them out. They deserve it for talking shit about someone who wasn't even ever involved to start with. And for those of you who believed them when they said she was involved...go to hell. You have no idea what the fuck you're talking about. If you want information, go straight to the horses mouth. Most of the bullshit gossip you hear is untrue anyhow...as it always seems to be when it comes to these people. Shut the fuck up, and stop talking shit about thing you know nothing about.

P.S. None of you know nothing about this...so don't worry. I'm not mad at you. I just had to spout it out somewhere.
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